this post is not from the road.. to say the least today (Friday) has been a very frustrating hurtful.... stress filled... feeling like i have beat my head against the wall one to many times day.
Today has been one of those days that i would love to have crawled in a whole and disappeared for about 6 months and not come back out until next year. I need a MAJOR vacation away from my parents... especially my mom. I am not sure what it is or what caused it but her and my relationship is deteriorating very rapidly it seems. I feel manipulated and unappreciated by her. Don't get me wrong I love her. But we just can not stand to be in the same room with each other anymore. I understand she is under a lot of stress due to the fact of my Dad being sick but that does not give her the right or the privilege to treat me like shit and take things out on me just because she thinks she can. i try to calmly discuss things with her and she has a fit and just can not handle what i am saying to her .it gets old fast feeling like the only reason she wants me around is for what she thinks she can get out of me and what i can do for her. Hopefully next weekend Trina will come up and we can go up to Boone and have a good time over the weekend.. and go to church on Sunday morning and have a generally good weekend together .. then the next weekend is my birthday and weekend after that i go to Trina's for supper with friends at Logan's. I really hope Dave will be back from deployment in time for he and Kristan to come join me for supper this is not gonna happen a minute to soon to be honest !
I am once again hurt and frustrated by someone i thought i meant a little more to than i actually am i guess. Todd is 100% emotionally shut down ! i don't know how else to describe it. I tell him i miss him and all he says is OK.. IT SUCKS !
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Glad to know things have quieted down a bit for you! {{{HUGS}}}
BTW your comments work!!! ;-)
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