It has been a while since i last wrote in my blog and today feels like a good day to do it. I've spent the day with my grandma and I think I have out stayed my welcome. I love her bunches but spending more than a couple hours with her makes me literally want to pull my hair out and run up and down the hall screaming and crying. It is always pull your shirt down. Do this and do that and to be honest it gets on my last nerve. But none the less, I love her. She is the only grandma I have so i don't think I will trade her anytime soon. I'm glad I don't do this very often or i would be certifiably insane. God knows I try. But nothing I do makes her happy. She apologize for her attitude and was really upset and nervous. The best thing i can do for her is pray for her and just try to let what she says and does not bother me and limit my time with her for self preservation.

ting yelled at and fussed at. At least at home i can get away from the crap

Ugh! This Is my vacation week! It's supposed to rain all week! How aggravating!! I am so ready to go home. This Is no better than being stuck at home get

this one isnt from the road....but i had to get this out of my system

this post is not from the road.. to say the least today (Friday) has been a very frustrating hurtful.... stress filled... feeling like i have beat my head against the wall one to many times day.

Today has been one of those days that i would love to have crawled in a whole and disappeared for about 6 months and not come back out until next year. I need a MAJOR vacation away from my parents... especially my mom. I am not sure what it is or what caused it but her and my relationship is deteriorating very rapidly it seems. I feel manipulated and unappreciated by her. Don't get me wrong I love her. But we just can not stand to be in the same room with each other anymore. I understand she is under a lot of stress due to the fact of my Dad being sick but that does not give her the right or the privilege to treat me like shit and take things out on me just because she thinks she can. i try to calmly discuss things with her and she has a fit and just can not handle what i am saying to her .it gets old fast feeling like the only reason she wants me around is for what she thinks she can get out of me and what i can do for her. Hopefully next weekend Trina will come up and we can go up to Boone and have a good time over the weekend.. and go to church on Sunday morning and have a generally good weekend together .. then the next weekend is my birthday and weekend after that i go to Trina's for supper with friends at Logan's. I really hope Dave will be back from deployment in time for he and Kristan to come join me for supper this is not gonna happen a minute to soon to be honest !

I am once again hurt and frustrated by someone i thought i meant a little more to than i actually am i guess. Todd is 100% emotionally shut down ! i don't know how else to describe it. I tell him i miss him and all he says is OK.. IT SUCKS !

Maybe in the next few days i can really get started wrritng here every day! Tomorrow my Dad is having a sleep study done. I am convinced everything will be ok. Every other test he has had has been ok. His stress test on his heart came back good. He had a chlosterol test the results caMe back good. Every test he has had to have has come out good! That is why i am expecting this to be ok too! That is all i have to say for right now! Goodnight friends!

This year will be a big birthday for me and i am actually pretty excited about my birthday! I am determined to not let my birthday this year affect me the way mom's did when she was my age! Like is way to precious to spend it in a funk and being depressed about it! LIFE IS GOOD!